bending over, and of course I'd be stepping, and I'd break it again. So I was breaking toes quite often, which is not a really a cool sound to hear. "Oh, shit, there's another one." Now they're straightening out, I can move them again. But the bottom line is, I can actually dream again, man. You see, I was to the point where I would get so angry when I'd wake up in the morning, saying "Sonofabitch, I'm still alive." I'd be pissed off. I mean, as sick as it sounds, it's the truth. If I heard somebody died, I would be jealous. What a lucky bastard. 'Cause I wanted to die. I wasn't suicidal because I had hurt my family and kids enough doing the stupid shit I'd already done. I wouldn't do that. But, man, I was sure hoping for death. And I hadn't had a dream in so many years, where something positive, you know, something good, and now I'm thinking of good stuff to do, fun stuff to do. Last week I actually went and walked up Stone Mountain. I know they always introduced me from Stone Mountain, that's a rib on the fans, too. I'd only been there about 3-4 times in my life... I actually went and did that. It's not an easy trek up there. Takes about 45 minutes of walking at a pretty good pace. The hard part about it is, Stone Mountain is not a smooth trail up there. You gotta step up and move, and get up there. We put some of that on YouTube and I'm gonna start doing that every week. If somebody told me six months ago I'd actually be able to get up that sonofabitch, I'd have laughed in your face, called you a liar, and tried to punch you because I'd thought you were trying to be cute and make a joke or make fun of me. That's how bad my body was. But hell, I went up that sonofabitch. I'm gonna try and do it every week. Now my goal is to actually run up the damn thing... It may take me a year, but by God I'll tell you something, at some point, if I stick with this program, I'm going to. Ain't nothing stopping me now... Y'all couldn't handle Jake when he was screwed up, what the hell are you gonna do with me now?
On inspiring others: If you're walking around in a negative cloud, not being positive or uplifting about yourself at all, then how the hell are you expecting to move forward? You can't. You're stuck in crap. I just know that there's so many people that I will affect with my journey to sobriety and my journey to health that it will mean so much more on the big scheme of things than my wrestling career ever did. There's millions of people out there that never watched wrestling, they don't know Jake, but I can give you a list of shit that I have overcame, and if that don't inspire you, then kiss my ass... Three of my kids called me on a conference call, and they said, you know, "Dad, we're always proud of ya, what you accomplished in the ring. You did so much. What you're doing right now- [what you've done in the ring] pales in comparison to what you're doing right now." And for my kids to tell me that, to tell me they were proud of me, you know, that kicks ass... Life is a beautiful thing, but life is what you make it. I spent 57 years making mine a mess, and I ain't doing that no more.